Mourning a Friendship

Candy Bird

I never realized before how much a lost friendship is like a death in an emotional way, (although on a much smaller scale).

All the anger, denial, fear and eventual acceptance are so similar in both areas. I still find myself angered in a small way about how I was treated and what was said, but it has become less and less frequent. I still wish there could be some kind of resolution. Even though I know bringing the friendship to an end was the right thing to do, it is still painful and I still miss that friend in some ways. It is sad to reach a point where the cons out weigh the pros in a long friendship.

Since I am not in a role to be there for them in a friendship all I can do is pray for them. It is a very peaceful, and yet a frustrating place to be. I want to help. I want to offer comfort or a shoulder to this person, but I can’t. I can’t because I don’t feel safe with them anymore. And finally, I can’t because they would not accept it if I did. Sigh…it is a strange place to be.

So, I will continue in my prayers for them and keep talking to God about it. The death of a friendship is indeed a sad thing.