Did You Say Shabby Chic?

My Inspiration (today)

I am a frugal girl, or at least I try to be. I like to save money, but I also like pretty things. I am slowly but surely coming up with cheap ways to decorate my condo (980 square feet). Since I have been following Dave Ramsey’s plan more fully in the last several months it has been really important to me that I find REALLY cheap, yet cute ways to fix up my place. Inspiration hit me anew this past week when I was looking at these blogs, which are some of my favorites for creative ideas.

Maybe Victoria is by far my favorite. I just love her enthusiasm and obvious gifts for creating beautiful things. I was SO inspired by all that she and her husband did with second hand items and on a budget of nearly nothing!

From Maybe Victoria I found Sanctuary, which I love! I SO wish my dog wasn’t black sometimes merely because it prohibits me from indulging in the all white loveliness I am drawn to. Shabby Chic anyone?

So, I have decided to change what I can and make the rest work for me. I am going to do my best to post pictures along the way. First up is my new dining room light that my awesome brother installed. I wish I had gotten a picture of the fan/lamp before it was taken out, but you can get an idea of how ugly it was from this photo. Uggg! I can’t figure out why I left it up for 6 years!

Also, in an effort to be a better keeper of my own home I made the bold purchase (in cash – no credit allowed!) of a Dyson Animal vacuum. Why? you ask. Meet Baby, my lovely companion, please note the black hair. Did I mention I opted for the cream carpet before I got her? Well, after six years of trying my best to get her hair off of the floor, the sofa and all guests who come to my house I decided to invest in a “real” vacuum. Thanks to Stacey, who told me about them being on sale on Overstock.com. (refurbished, of course) And no, I will not be vacuuming my guests as they leave, but you get the idea.

To further help with the cleanliness issue of a dog and carpet I have decided to get my carpet professionally cleaned. I got an estimate from a big chain cleaner, but I really wanted to go with a more green process. Unfortunately, the green process is much more expensive. $195 vs. $95. As my budget was only $115, the $195 was a no-go. When I told the green company I had a budget (thank you Dave Ramsey), they offered to give me an $80 discount, if I would agree to appear in a 30 second commercial on the website, but only if I was happy with their work. Say what? Those that really know me know that appearing on a camera (still or moving) of any kind is enough to break me out in hives, but I couldn’t pass up such a great deal. I will let you know how that goes! And boy does my carpet need it!

Here is a list of my plans so far:

Get carpet cleaned
Paint dinner table and chairs and possibly distress them.
Paint the entertainment center and make curtains for glass doors (also possibly distressing)
Spray point wicker box.
Have bathroom light installed
Have outside light installed
Paint the dining room a different shade of green (it’s too limey – is that a word?)
Paint bedroom furniture white.

Did I mention I don’t really like to paint? hmmm. It will be worth it though. I will definitely take pictures. =)

Mourning a Friendship

Candy Bird

I never realized before how much a lost friendship is like a death in an emotional way, (although on a much smaller scale).

All the anger, denial, fear and eventual acceptance are so similar in both areas. I still find myself angered in a small way about how I was treated and what was said, but it has become less and less frequent. I still wish there could be some kind of resolution. Even though I know bringing the friendship to an end was the right thing to do, it is still painful and I still miss that friend in some ways. It is sad to reach a point where the cons out weigh the pros in a long friendship.

Since I am not in a role to be there for them in a friendship all I can do is pray for them. It is a very peaceful, and yet a frustrating place to be. I want to help. I want to offer comfort or a shoulder to this person, but I can’t. I can’t because I don’t feel safe with them anymore. And finally, I can’t because they would not accept it if I did. Sigh…it is a strange place to be.

So, I will continue in my prayers for them and keep talking to God about it. The death of a friendship is indeed a sad thing.

We Need to Talk

I have had the honor of being Facebooks friends with Janks Morton for a couple of years now. He is by far my favorite documentarian and he asked me to do a review of his new documentary. Janks is bold and unapologetic about the misconception people push on others. I first saw, "What Black Men Think" after seeing a trailer on youtube several years ago.

It forced me to completely reevaluate how I read and process information provided by the media.

Recently he has released a new documentary called, "We Need to Talk".



It is gutsy and humbling at the same time. He asks numerous women about who their first love was, how old they were when they met them and how is worked out for them. The ages are varied, but one thing stayed the same...they didn't work out (except for one, I believe). He also interviews many women, asking them to talk about the choices they made in life regarding growing up, men, pregnancy and what they would change (to name a few). These conversations are deep, and painful, but also humbling and amazingly insightful. As I watched I cried and cried as one of the women describes her pain following her decision to abort her baby. I ached to hug each one.

This documentary is a MUST see for everyone young man and woman.

You can also see Jank's blog here.

Blog Delights

I know I have mentioned it before, but this amazing blog, called Aspiring Homemaker is a total delight. I love reading each post and enjoying living precariously through the author.

If you are intrigued by homesteading and/or homeschooling and/or vintage clothes and/or modestly you will LOVE it.

I can't speak highly enough of it!!

True Friends

Having friends can be a tricky proposition in my opinion. I think the trick is to accept that there are some friends that are more on the outer edges of my life. Some friends stay on the outside because of distance, although social media and email make that list much shorter than it used to be. It so easy to stay in touch these days, if a person really wants to that is.

Some friends on the outside are there because you just don’t have time or the inclination to really stay in touch. I have friends that I only see every couple of years, but it is like we were just together, and I know when we are apart they have a great love and concern for me and vice versa. Theses are also the friends that when they get even a whiff of something bad going on in my life will ring me up, or send me a message on Facebook asking me how I am and if I need prayers.

Some friends stay on the outside because of selfishness. These are the friends that only ring you when they want something from you, or want to talk about themselves. The kind of friend that never asks about you, or very rarely will fit in a quick, “so how are you?”, right before interrupting your response to correlate you current life to their experience thereby turning the conversation back to them.

Also in this category are the manipulative friends, the ones that will acts as though you are their only friend when they talk to you, which isn’t often. These are the friends that usually want something from you, like emotional support for their less than stellar actions, or to share some news. i.e., I haven’t talked to you in months but I am getting married or having a baby, or am trying to right all the wrongs in the world.

Then there are the full time friends. We can usually count them on one hand because they are few and far between. They transcend ages and backgrounds. Although sometimes it is the similarity in backgrounds, whether traumatic or euphoric that will bind you. Some of these types of friends will be there for you no matter what. They know what is going on in your life and accept you for who you are even if they don’t agree.

There are even friends like this that go a step further. They are the friends that are honest with you. I have two friends like that. They love me enough and are righteous in character enough to be honest with me, and would happily and not so happily, kick me in the rear end if I started to wander from the path and God’s way. These are the friends I rely on for truth and support. They are the ones that know me and know what is really going on in my life and my heart. They are really more sisters than mere friends and I am so blessed to have them. I honestly thank God for them and for their honesty. In a world where the Enemy is CONSTANTLY trying to ruin us and pull us from our path, we need friends that will truly stand by us and strengthen us.

I have been blessed with many friends in many different degrees of all these categories. Some are better friends to me than I am to them, and some vice versa. I think the important part, and the wisest is to recognize each friend for who they are, and accept the limitations each might have. When we have unreal expectations is when we head down a path of discontent and anger. I have learned this the hard way, believe me.

I guess the key is really to be the best friend I can be and relax in the truth that it will come back to me from the friends that matter.

Look at Me, Look at Me!

I am re-reading Stormie Omartian’s book The Power of A Praying Woman and I am getting even more out of it the FOURTH time around. Something that has stayed in my mind is her discussion on good ways to tell if you walk with God is shallow. Several of these hit close to home for me, so I thought I would share the five she lists.

1. If you follow the Lord for only what He can do for you.

2. If you only pray to God when things are tough or you need something.

3. If you get mad at God or disappointed in Him when He doesn’t do what you want.

4. If you love God only because of what He does.

5. If you think you have to beg God or twist His arm to get Him to answer your prayers.

I have been getting so much out of this book it is almost like I never read it before. It is interesting the things that God shows us when we ask Him. I have realized that I sometimes have a wrong attitude in my serving at church. Too often I do things with the idea that I will be able to show God I am doing good things all in an effort to earn the blessings. I am horrified that I was using my service as some kind of yard stick to show God, look at me, look at me…have I done enough now? Am I good enough now?

I will never do enough, or be good enough, that was the whole point of Christ’s sacrifice. I am very grateful that God revealed this to me, and humbled by it. Funny how that works, huh?

Does God Have Shortages?

I received an e-mail from a friend of mine not that long ago talking about how she felt there was a shortage of godly men in the church, and that we should be praying that God would call more men into the Church to be husband for us single girls.

On first read I totally agreed. Seriously, how many conversations have I had, or heard of about men just not having their act together spiritually, mentally, or economically? But then I started to think (I know, I know, never a good thing! :) Anyway, I started to think about the idea that there is a shortage of godly men in the church.

Does God have shortages?

Is God scraping the bottom of the barrel? And not that we shouldn’t pray for more people to be called by God, but is it something that just has to be done because God has run out of single men He can work with in the Church?

I don’t think so. I don’t think God suffers from shortages in this area. I think He is more than capable of working with the single men in the Church. There are so many great single men that I know. Yes, some of them could use some work, who couldn’t? I think a lot of the reasoning on the idea of a godly man shortage is that many times women want to marry men like their fathers, or older men they look up to. The major problem with that ideal is that it took those older men years to become the men we that know now! It is unfair to hold young single men to an ideal that took other men 30 plus years to obtain!

As a single girl in the Church I have had many a conversation about the sad state of the men in the church. I have heard story after story about some guy being a jerk, or just not having his act together. But is that really fair? I know plenty of women in the church, including myself, that have some big areas in our own lives that need to be worked on. We as women are not somehow exempt because we are women.I think some of the feelings from the single women come from having to wait. Patience is a virtue, but it ain’t easy! As we wait, we think, and as we think, we complain, and as we complain, we can and sometimes do develop a root of bitterness.

What are we waiting for? We are waiting for that guy that clicks, for that guy that feels so drawn to us he can’t help but pursue us. We hear the stories about a shy or aloof single guy in the church that met a woman and it was like a light went off in his head. And where in all those previous years he never pursued a girl, now with the right one he can’t help himself. He found the one.

Sometimes waiting to be found is the hardest part, but I still think about Genesis 22:19, which says, “And God remembered Rachel”. God has not forgotten about His daughters. He has not reached the bottom of the barrel and isn’t deaf to our tears and praying.

I think the important thing for me to remember is that trials of patience are still trials, which means that they have to be endured. There are lessons to be learned from trials, especially long running trials that tend to lose the clarity of the lessons to be learned because they are not trial easily overcome, but are continual.

As for me, well…I just keep trudging along, trying to make sense of it all as I pull up some of those bitter roots.

Ephesians 12:12-15

Therefore strengthen the hands which hang down, and the feeble knees, and make straight paths for your feet, so that what is lame may not be dislocated, but rather be healed. Pursue peace with all people, and holiness, without which no one will see the Lord: looking carefully lest anyone fall short of the grace of God; lest any root of bitterness springing up cause trouble, and by this many become defiled…

Ecclesiastes 7:25-26

I applied my heart to know,

To search and seek out wisdom and the reason of things,

To know the wickedness of folly,

Even of foolishness and madness.

And I find more bitter than death

The woman whose heart is snares and nets,

Whose hands are fetters.

He who pleases God shall escape from her,

But the sinner shall be trapped by her.